Alexa: A mother’s journey of
love, loss and hope
I was 26 when I lost my first baby to stillbirth. This book is a compilation of my journal entries as I navigated the first year of grief. Raw and honest, the pages reflect my thoughts on loss, faith and hope – and the journey to heal.
Losing my first baby to stillbirth was a pain
that I still can’t properly put into words. But I tried.
Writing has always been a way for me to express myself and process my thoughts.
So when I lost Alexa, I did the only thing that made sense to me in a time when nothing else did: I wrote.
I wrote what I felt, what I thought, what I wished.
Every word you’ll read in this book was written as I grieved the loss of my baby in that first year. Be warned: it’s raw. But it’s real. And weaved in between the tears and anger was a thread of hope and faith that grew, somehow, steadily stronger, throughout.
It’s my hope that as you read this, you’ll be encouraged, comforted – and reminded that you are not alone.
Book blurb:
I was 26, married for four years.
My husband and I decided that it was time to start a family, and we got pregnant with our first child!
Everything in the pregnancy progressed smoothly, exactly like what the textbooks said. We were breezing through, and getting ready to meet our little girl.
Then, when I was 36 weeks pregnant, everything collapsed.
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About the book
‘Stories like this remind me why I love my job. It’s such a privilege to journey with a woman in a season that will change her life forevermore: pregnancy. It’s a journey that transforms a woman to a mother. Thank you Natalie for your courage in sharing such a painful season in your life. You put your thoughts and feelings so beautifully into words.’
– Dr Debbie Teh, OBGYN
‘Natalie’s written raw emotions tugged at my heartstrings and I had to fight back tears while reading Alexa. Her story has given a voice for mothers who have gone through the painful journey of losing their little ones.’
– Gillian Chung
‘This book will definitely touch, warm and heal your heart. If you know anyone that has gone through loss or probably someone who cannot move on from her past, this book will be a great blessing too.’
– Juli Joe
‘A rare guide and companion to journey with for those who experienced the loss of an infant.’
– Faith Yeoh
What readers think
This was an extremely difficult book to write. But I hope these words can somehow help to comfort and journey with those who may be going through a similar situation.
After losing Alexa, I was terrified that I would one day forget her. I suppose this book is also one of the way I am immortalising her, ensuring that the memory of Alexa lives on.
Sending love and hope to you,
Nat
